Im here to fix your mistakes.
I just stared. Eyes transfixed, heart violently protesting its confinement.
Im here to fix your mistakes. I will refine your role in the world, to give it a second chance.
Struggling to take a breath, I coaxed my throat into releasing my voice, You cant be.
I am.
But I-
No, not you. Dont you understand? Its not so complex.
But thats just it. Its only complex. Its not true.
She fiddled with her hair, twisting a heavy spiral between her ring and pinky fingers, like I always did. It doesnt matter if you believe it or not. Truth doesnt covet understanding.
It should.
But it doesnt.
It should!
She smiled, But it doesnt.
I pressed my palms against my temples, Whats going on? This isnt real.
Close your eyes. Taking a step towards me, she insisted, It hurts more when you know its coming.
Stay there, I commanded. Youre not even-
Youre crying inside.
I-
It breaks your heart to remember, yet you're jammed in one spot, dwelling on the things you're incapable of letting go, her voice softened. But none of the people who have scarred you are to blame. Your enemy is your reflection.
Thats not true
Your enemy is me. The words stuck in the air, thick and oppressive, But don't worry. Im here to mend you, and to make things better.
Mend me? How can you make anything better?
The smile returned to her lips, Close your eyes and all will be resolved. Peacefully.
You cant be me. I wouldnt do this to myself!
Its not that its being done to you as much as for everyone else, she clarified simply. Youve left the path that you were meant to follow.
Youll just step in then, is that it?
Yes, and will rectify your misdeeds.
I havent done anything wrong!
Or right. She slowly shook her head, Youre a compassionate person and this is for existence. Do the right thing.
The right thing? What about me?
Youll be fine, although you wont be the one who is you.
You will. My voice trembled slightly, Youll be me.
I am you.
But I cant- I dont want to just disappear, I-
Nothing disappears. It simply changes.
Why cant I be the one to help the world?
Youre too far gone. You cant reach it.
But I-
But I can.
In my head, I suddenly felt very far away. I could see myself, standing alone, but was it me I was seeing or was it her?
It will be you who aids the world, She reminded me. It will be the person born with your name, who lived your life, exactly the same in every physical way: the precise definition of identity, as defined by your society. No one will know the difference, save for me, and it wont take me long to convince myself that I was the one living your life all along.
Youll take it over. Just like that.
Just like that.
I'm supposed to just disappear for the good of the world. For everyones sake
You are. Exactly.
Several tears burned as they inched down my cheeks, What did I do? What did I do that was so horrible that I need to be replaced?
Shed taken several steps towards me and now placed her hands gently on the sides of my face, All that you can do now is stay strong. You, as yourself, can still help by being strong enough to give it all away.
Staring at her, into my own eyes, I could feel myself breaking. I never meant to do anything wrong.
I know you didnt. At least you can do whats right now, when it counts most.
I nodded weakly, I dont want to hurt anyone else
Thats right. Youll be the only casualty.
My heart was lurching; skipping beats at random intervals, as far lost in a disorienting uncertainty as I was. The me that still spoke my thoughts was not above the world, and I relinquished.
Now close your eyes, Her tone was even and expectant.
Having let go of my sight, it would end quickly. Deep down, despite my intention to spare the world the pain I would cause it, I still hoped to be spared any pain of my own.
Placing a hand to her chest, the life within, pulsing unevenly through her heart, seeped out. Her body fell to the ground, expression calm and coated with a frail delirium, before she disappeared.
Somewhere, I heard her name being called. The voice began to sound familiar, the surroundings taking on a name.
I turned away from any of her that still remained in the air, suspended like reality, Im coming.














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